“Genetics and runaway appetite are not the only causes of obesity. Sometimes, your own body can turn against you in ways you never thought possible.” ~The Science of Obesity
Sunday, April 2, 2017
Day 1: Blogging with the Cushies, featuring Alicia and The EPIC Foundation
Day 1: Blogging with the Cushies, featuring MaryO
Day 1: BIG news month. Don't miss it.
Cushing's Awareness Month starts today.
H O O R A Y !
Am I cutting it close or what? 11:55 pm on day 1 of the blogging challenge.
I want to tell you that my life has undergone great change in the past year. I hope you will visit us often. Will this blog reach one million page views this month? At 922,000, we don't have far to go.
For 30 days in April, I will be blogging about:
~ My 10 year anniversary with Cushing's!! How did I survive
~ A Decade to Wellness: Moxie's full Cushing's story all in one post + never before seen personal photos
~ All things Cushing's: what the docs should know. New journal articles about hypercortisolemia, panhypopituitary, adrenal insufficiency, and adrenal crisis in the medical literature
~ Training Tux. Follow along to see how Moxie trains our service dog to detect cortisol for me and blood sugar for my husband plus many basic dog commands without ever having owned a dog before. This gets comical.
~ My new rheumatoid arthritis diagnosis and how high cortisol sets many Cushies up for autoimmune disease after remission. Bonus: are rheumys better than endos?
~ Prednisolone: my success with a relatively unknown cortisol replacement
~ Weight loss 3 years after BLA: it is finally happening. You'll never guess that our old, ubiquitous nemesis Metformin is now the hero
~ Growth hormone insufficiency landmines: why are endos hesitant to prescribe this after Cushing's pituitary surgery and how to deal with predictable delays and deliberate stalling by the insurance companies
~ Korlym: how doctors are prescribing it in 2017 vs. 2013 when it was first approved by FDA (hint: follow the money). Disclaimer: I own stock in Corcept Therapeutics. See full disclaimer on the side bar to the right).
~ Cushies make headlines: Follow up on the Cushies we've seen in the news
~ Patient spotlight in Cushing's right before your eyes. See the many faces of Cushing's in patients' before and after photos
~ Life after BLA: Words of Wisdom from Cushies about controlling cortisol, taking medicine every day, and living with the ever-present threat of adrenal insufficiency and adrenal crisis. Is it better or worse than endos threaten it will be?
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Be sure to like my new Facebook page: Fight Cushing's with Moxie on Facebook.
Forward those posts to your friends, family, and community to help spread awareness for Cushing's.
SUPPORT CUSHING'S BLOGGERS ALL APRIL by forwarding their blog posts to your FB peeps. Let's make it our goal to make them see the word Cushing's twice a day for 30 days! We can do it, everybody!
Thanks for stopping by. See y'all soon.
~ Moxie Melissa
Tuesday, March 28, 2017
10 years ago today
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| From Robin @ http://survivethejourney.blogspot.com/ |
debilitate
verb (used with object), debilitated, debilitating.
1. to make weak or feeble; enfeeble
devastate
verb (used with object), devastated, devastating.
unfair
It is quite something to sit here after all this time has passed. These three words describe so much of my reality with Cushing's. I wish it were over, but there is always something. It is so difficult to sit here and think that 10 whole years were stolen from me, completely took me off course, changed the trajectory of my husband and family forever. It makes me happy in one way that I survived it. I am still here. There were countless days when I was suicidal and wondered if I could make it through the next five minutes. When I wasn't suicidal, I was wondering if it would every stop and if Cushing's was going to stop, when? I was and am so sick and tired of being sick and tired.
Some have asked what I know now that I didn't know then?
Ten years is a very long time -- long enough that I hoped all of this disease would be far behind me yet not long enough to see Cushing's leave my body fully.
I am no longer a healthy person.
I no longer believe all things are possible for me.
I no longer see myself as free and limitless.
I'm not down. I'm not depressed. I'm pragmatic. This is the way my life is now.
I have made the best of it. I will continue to do so. I survived. So will you. I don't always know how, but I know that if we arm ourself with knowledge and support from the Cushie community, then I can make it. We can make it. I talk to myself as much as I speak to any readers still out there. Ten years is a very long time to be sick.
Yet each day I am here, it's a little bit of a miracle.
One more day I spend with my husband, together for 12 years and the entirety of my Cushing's mission.
One more day I get to spend with my daughter and watch the world in wonder with her.
One the good days, the few good days, I'm fine. Life is different. I don't go around much. I get everything delivered. I don't make plans with friends or pursue my life's goals and dreams. I wish I could figure out how to make room for that. I need more of that. More of me. Maybe I will discover more of me as Cushing's recedes. Maybe it's been me this whole time. I sometimes feel like an alien in my own body. Like, I know it is me, that I went those places and had those experiences. Yet, it is so foreign and unexpected that I don't recognize this life that I live, mostly homebound, with so many dadgum limitations. Too many CAN'Ts that will never COULDs.
Perhaps this is just a life journey like anyone else's. Perhaps this is my path to find the meaning of life. Whatever it is that I am supposed to know, I hope that I'm not too tired or asleep to know it when I see it.
~ Mox
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Please note that Cushing's Awareness Month is coming up in April, just a short few days away. Once again, I will be participating. I hope to do better than I've done in the past about blogging every day. There are many updates in my life, in what I've learned about Cushing's and what continues to surprise me about life after BLA. I hope you will come by and visit again in April.
Also, check out my FB page Fight Cushing's with Moxie.
Bye for now.
Mox
Sunday, March 19, 2017
Canines and Cortisol
These Dogs Save Lives By Smelling People's Breath
MAY 08, 2014
"The fact that dogs can sniff out cancer is pretty miraculous, but that’s not the only disease canines know how to catch with their incredible olfactory abilities. Medical detection dogs -- who have been trained to sense the symptoms of a range of illnesses -- perform a unique service unlike the typical assistance dog, alerting their owners to physical problems that might otherwise go unnoticed. Thanks to the work of Claire Guest, a doctor who founded the UK-based charity Medical Detection Dogs, dozens of lives have been saved (and improved) because of disease-sniffing dogs."
https://www.thedodo.com/community/jennykutner/these-dogs-save-lives-by-smell-542022566.html
Tuxie and Moxie train with Service Dog Express. www.servicedogexpress.com
keywords: service dog, Team Tux, medical alert, cortisol detection
New Service Dog!!
Today my family got a service dog, Tux. He will be trained to detect cortisol for me and blood sugar for my husband who is a type 1 diabetic.
Follow along this new journey. Go like our Facebook page, called Fight Cushing's with Moxie.
And stay tuned, because April is Cushing's Awareness Month, and my 10th anniversary with Cushing's. Lots of new stories coming up.
-Moxie
key words: service dog, Team Tux, medical alert, cortisol detection
Friday, March 3, 2017
Health Care is No Privilege
Good medical coverage means that unfair financial burdens don't cause more hardship and pain than the already difficult and often insurmountable struggles to get well."
Friday, January 20, 2017
Keep fighting until you get better
A few of my friends are in the battle of their lives. Convinced they have Cushing's, these patients have played the test-and-wait game, for a long, long time. They can barely see themselves in this life that is focused just on the bare necessities (food, care for kids, our self care gets skipped) and SLEEP. A lot of sleep. All the times you can't go to sleep because of daytime duties and responsibilities and wide awake when it is actually time to go to sleep. Add doctors dragging their feet and you slowly to diagnosis and high cortisol to the mix. Cushie just want to give up!
In case you haven't read it lately, here are my moxie set of tips to steady your feet and get yourself diagnosed.
Tips to Steady your Feet & Get Diagnosed Quickly
http://cushingsmoxie.blogspot.com/2008/06/tips-to-steady-your-feet-and-get_04.html?m=1
I haven't changed one thing on that post in the nearly nine years since I wrote it.
It pains me to see how relevant it is today-- patients still suffering too long and doctors too sure of their knowledge to admit the patient may have something rare.
The world of information has changed since that 2008 post, too. I started to research cushing's on the internet in March 2007. I didn't use Facebook back then. A simple google search resulted in more posts about dogs and horses than people.
TRUE STORY!!
(🐶 + 🐴) x info > 👩💻
So be happy that information is available and keep fighting Cushing's with Moxie.
Tuesday, January 17, 2017
My friend Tami finally found help for Cushing's
Saturday, December 31, 2016
Three year BLAnniversary
Thursday, April 7, 2016
Cushing's Awareness Month: What You Have vs. What Doctors will Say You Have
- Obesity (lose weight, lose symptoms)
- Polycystic ovarian syndrome (PCOS)
- Fibromyalgia (no lab tests can prove this; diagnosis given when they don't know what else is wrong with you)
- Back and muscle pain
- Diabetes
- Blurred vision, visual field loss, double vision
- Chronic fatigue syndrome
- Dry, oily, or sweaty skin
- Impotence or infertility
- Joint pain, joint/bone abnormalities
- Migraines
- Muscle weakness, carpal tunnel syndrome
- Temporomandibular joint/TMJ/jaw joint pain
- Thyroid imbalance or "slow metabolism"
What your symptoms really mean if doctors put them all together - CUSHING'S
- Facial redness
- Rounding of the face (moon face)
- Unexplained weight gain around belly
- Buffalo hump, or hump on back of neck
- Pink or purple stretch marks
- Thicker or more visible body and facial hair
- Acne
- Muscle weakness (difficulty standing or climbing stair)
- Extreme fatigue (no amount of sleep is enough)
- Depression, anxiety and irritability
- Pink, red or purple stretch marks along your abdomen, arms, or thighs
- Thin and fragile skin that bruises easily
- Slow healing of cuts, insect bites and infections
- Bone thinning (osteopenia, osteoporosis), easily broken bones
- Recurrent infections
- Sleep disturbances, night sweats, awake at midnight or 4 am
- High blood pressure
- Diabetes mellitus
- Irregular or absent menstrual periods in females
- Clotting disorder
Wednesday, April 6, 2016
It's Cushing's and Adrenal Insufficiency Awareness Month!
772,998 page views.
WOW!
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| 2016 not 2015. Mistake from a Cushie Mind. |
I can easily say that when I started this blog eight years ago that I had no idea how far my typed words would go. At the time, it was my little place to put down my knowledge about a disease that plagued me but also a space to share my frustration when I didn't have anywhere else to put it.
I look back at the 510 posts I have made, and I have mixed emotions.
I stand proud that I have a collection of myself that I can share with all of those who seek understanding and assistance tackling a monster of a disease as well as a medical community that claims to have never encountered that beast before.
I am happy that my work has helped so many people that my eyes overfill with joy when an email (moxiemelissa atsign gmail dot com) comes through thanking me for maintaining this blog and saving a life.
I feel accomplished that I put so much work into a blog even when I wasn't feeling well. I posted many times from my iphone because sitting upright hurt my back and joints too much. I often lost sleep and time with my family so that I put up content in an never-sufficient-effort to save people from this destructive disease. I felt a huge responsibility to keep posting.
Among these many posts, I can't help but notice all that I didn't say. I see gaping holes of my life story that I never posted here.
- I was too sick to type.
- I was too disappointed to share.
- I was not with it enough to formulate sentences and cognitively too confused to make sense of lab results and doctors appointments.
- I didn't know what to do to cure this disease or even help myself. Many times, I was just too hopeless to share.
Putting the disappointment I was facing right here on this page was so overwhelming that I just couldn't do it. If I wrote it down, it would really be as bad as it was when it all swirled around my mind. In those times, I remained silent. My social anxiety heightened, and I clammed up. I tried to scrape together a life with whatever leftover energy I had left after the grueling fatigue -- I can assure you that there wasn't much left. I would try to forget Cushing's and I got caught up with the daily rhythm of school for my child, work for my husband, cleaning and cooking and sleeping. Every day I knew that anything expected of me other than sleeping was too much for me to handle. Cleaning and cooking just never seemed to happen. Cushing's rang in my ears, literally, thanks tinnitus common with pituitary tumors, and reminded me every day what I had and what I tried to escape. Endless doctor appointments, scans, lab work, and daily medicine never let me forget that I was in the middle of a war against my own body.
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This isn't the most uplifting start to a month of awareness, but it's a start nonetheless.
Thursday, February 18, 2016
Wow! Updates to Addison's Owners Manual
Wednesday, November 11, 2015
Life as a Cushie
Friday, September 4, 2015
PNA: Cushing's at 16
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| Copyright Robin and Pituitary Network Association, 2015. |
"Cushing's definitely made me the person I am today, and even though the experience was terrible, I am proud of who I am now." ~ Robin, 18 years old
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I do wish that the PNA would have featured a story of someone who required multiple surgeries before getting better. Highlighting patients who had one pituitary surgery and got their cure is not representative of the patients who experience Cushing's. I know far more people who required multiple surgeries than those who were cured by one. In my post entitled Cushie Warriors, I begged those with a Cushie in their life to support them, as many of them required multiple surgeries and treatments and still may not have a cure. It seems odd when so much information is out there about how pituitary surgery cures a Cushie, and it was important to let the few that remain part of the Cushie's support system to know that their Cushie-who-can't-get-well is not the exception but the rule. When I collected that patient treatment information and posted over four years ago in April 2011, there were already 50 people on the list. Kinda high for a rare disease, right? I have an updated list of Cushie Warriors that tops over 125. That sure is a lot of Cushies out there who are trying to get people to understand that we are really sick and we have to go through a lot of testing to be rediagnosed in order to have multiple surgeries. It would further understanding for the complexity of Cushing's treatment if a national organization like PNA could help us get those stories out.
Feel like talking and typing
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| You are a doctor. Have a heart. |
Thursday, April 2, 2015
Day 1: Cushing's Awareness Month Bloggers Challenge
These past eight years have been filled with some of the darkest moments of my life. At the time, I wondered if I could make it through the next five minutes. Somehow, I endured the medical challenges before me. I faced disappointment and delay. I have been dismissed and dismayed. I have been tenacious and stubborn in fighting for myself, for what is right.





